Sunday, February 27, 2011

Within Four Walls


Four walls in their separate ways
All stone cold and dark with shadows
no knobs are found, just locks and keys
Chained shut from all thats out there.

Within four walls lay shelves of things
of all sizes shapes and colors
things meant to keep lost, meant to stay shut
things meant to stay hidden

Can't release, 
can't express, 
I only can hide

Jars overflow the shelves
getting brighter with every moment
the dust on them collecting
their contents screaming to be opened

Bright Florissant masks
are flowing from every where else the jars are not
masks with feathers some with glitter 
all appeasing to the eye

on the other side of each mask
the masks are not that pretty
there is ripped skin from the wearers face
the part of them that always stays attached to the masks

the beast that owns this warehouse
suffers with every mask
every masks takes apart of him
only decaying his face more

after every mask his face becomes more scarred
more hard
more calloused
more .... desperate

The true Identity of this masked monster 
remains concealed, hidden
Covered by the false presentation of himself
passionately, laboriously coating his Identity

Under inches of plastic his heart barely beats
his lungs suffocating, screaming of searing suffering
shivering in utter loneliness he can only mask himself more
The emotions he feels get strangled into Jars one at a time

Waiting for light
waiting for freedom
trapped with only himself
Trapped within four walls

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Untitled

censored whispers
muted screams
gloomy nightmares
hours full of restlessness

mind whirling from endless anxiety
my mouth sewn shut by my own fears
suppressed by words of desperation
all gone with the wind.... I can't talk, not now

swiftly, slyly, evading verbal exchange
remaining concealed, shuttering in agony
lacking hope, bearings and reason
dare make a sound? (sigh) only hushed stillness

ceaseless years of muffled murmurs
speech wells up within the inner being
raw intense sentiments thrusting against brittle walls
quickly restrained gaged then stored away

just added to the heart
already full of fragile jars
simply one more to camouflage to cover up.
why should anyone dare take notice

disillusioned for so long
with no hopes of escape
endless longing, desperation
is it time to let go? ...... oh no

in emotional weakness
I blabbered out my heart's withholdings
not restricted, not censored, not planned
heart wide open, shattered glass.... just lying there broken

no words spoken
not even a sound
my heart still broken
lying there on the ground

weeks of silence
I'm still shattered glass
will I be put together
of just get walked past.